As I sit here in front of this keyboard I’m wondering what am I going to say? Am I going to say something wrong? Perhaps maybe even something right? I don’t know. I felt like I had to hit the keyboard and say something. Tonight’s soundtrack is John Coltrane’s “Blue Train” It’s a great feeling record especially for the mood I’ve been in lately. I want to write a song, yet I don’t know how to go about penning lyrics down. I don’t think I’ve ever penned a full song. I’ve had a chorus here and a verse there but nothing solid. I’m going to try and work on that. This is pretty therapeutic typing actually. I like it. Remind me to do it more often. So there is this girl… I have to put on a new pair of shoes metaphorically. I don’t mind a change and even welcome it. I think I was caught off guard by some things, but I want to push on. Hopefully the feeling is mutual. I like this one. I think I’m the one with commitment issues. But why? I have a great relationship with my parents. Why am I so scared about these things? I guess I’m airing a lot of dirty laundry right now. Most of you could care less but this, like I said, is therapeutic to me so let me say my peace. It’s crazy but in the silence of the songs I can hear my heart beat in between it. I’ve switched soundtracks to City and Colour’s “Bring Me Your Love”. I got to catch them at SXSW this year and needless to say, I can’t wait to hear more. His stuff is very inspiring to me and I would love to write songs like that. Hopefully I can find my muse and open the “pandoras box” of songwriting in me. I wont lie it’s been difficult not playing music in a band. That’s all I’ve ever known. I need to get back towards that light. It’s a long and winding road but someday I’ll get back on it.
I guess that’s what I have tonight but It’s been nice to sit here listen to amazing songs and hash out some stuff that’s been getting to me. I miss some people for sure and hopefully I can right some wrongs.
Goodnight world.
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